Here are disembodied lines I'd like to tell some beloved people, none of whom are likely to ever read this. Though I'll tell you, the first one is for Jake.
"I love you more and more. I want that love to uproot the many fears I have, so I'm constantly entrusting you to Christ."
"I am not sure I ever knew the real you, but I miss you terribly."
"Please, please, put the phone down and talk to me."
"Thank you for the money."
"Are you okay? What do you want from me? I at least want to know, even if I can't do anything about it."
"Forgiving you for what you have done feels like admitting that what I knew about morality and good behavior was not applicable to you. But I also know the truth is ten times more complicated than the version in my head. So I re-forgive you, and ask myself the quarterly question: is it time to call?"
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